Ryan and I are going through a 'rough patch'. He is saying to me the things that I said to Brian before. I recognize them, and I am dying a little inside.
I'm slowly scraping little peices of skin off my hand.
I can't put into words what I'm feeling. I'll try.
I can see the end. And I know that we can avoid it. But...I don't know if we will. The long distance is wearing on me like nothing else. I didn't realize how bad it was.
I've already basically lost him as a boyfriend. We don't do boyfriend-girlfriend things. Now, I'm dangerously close to losing him as a best friend.
Fuck. How do I do this shit to myself?