~Did anyone watch that CBS miniserise about Marylin Monroe?????
~It scared the dickens outta me.
~Marylin kept saying "I know the charecters...they're inside of me...I know how this happened to her...I am her..." and allt hat? Like she actually was the charecter she was portraying?? Like she knew them because a part of her was them...
~Want to know why that scared me so badly?
~Becasue I feel the exact same way.
~I'm not an actor...I'm a writter. People tell me I have a talent for portraying deep charecters. Joanna told me that even my minor charecters seemed real and that was 3 years ago. You wanna know why? Because I am the charecters.
~I am Priire.
~I am Starfighter.
~I am The Dark One.
~I am Annika.
~I am Yuki.
~I am Areil.
~I am Mori.
~I am Kousotsu.
~I am Kleppa.
~I am...
~I can feel all of them...and to write them I just have to be them. Is that why I can write so much? Because I'm actually telling my story/ies? Is that why people say my charecters are so deep?
~Is this a bad thing? Marylin died so early and so young and so hopeless...am I going to?
~I don't think so. I think that maybe I'll stick it out cause I know something she didn't...I have God to lean on.
~But it still shook me down to my bones. What if I get so many charecters inside of me that there isn't room for me anymore? Yikes...that's kinda scary. Maybe this is who people with multiple personality disorder start out....*knows that isn't ture* OMG! What if I get tramumatized and one of the charecters I am takes over? I write aobut that happening to Priire...what if it happens to me and I begin to belive that I really am a senshi...AHHHHH!!! What if I get tramutized and turn in to Annika?? I'd have to get a whole new wardrobe! *giggles*
~Mmmm...I think I'll think about this for a good long while.~